F Dm Skin and bones, stomach aches A# Lucid dreams, hold my breath when I'm wide awake F Dm Connecticut, dissociate A# Maybe I should buy a house in a town upstate Gm C F C/E Dm If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody C A# that I'm proud of Chorus: F Dm I'm getting undressed for my lover A# And praying she don't hate all my skin like I do F Dm I'm reading books and drinking coffee A# Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom F The water goes downhill, and still Dm A# I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly F Dm And I don't feel alive A# No, I don't feel alive Telehealth, TV episodes Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow Validate, what I know What I believe in and everywhere I wanna go If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of Chorus: I’m paying three different psychologists Trying to remember who I told what story to I’m writing feelings in a journal Cuz' that’s what people who have their shit together seem to do The water goes downhill, and still I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly And I don't feel alive, no, I don't feel alive F Dm A# I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my F Dm A# I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs Chorus: I’m learning how to set my boundaries How to have compassion for myself and for my mind I’m turning off my fucking cell phone And trying to have honest conversations in real life The water goes downhill, and still I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly And I don't feel alive, no, I don't feel alive I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs | TransposeReset Font sizeReset Chords fingeringsA# C Dm E F Gm |