Chelsea Cutler - I Don't Feel Alive: chords

F         Dm
Skin and bones,  stomach aches
A#
Lucid dreams, hold my breath when I'm wide awake
F       Dm
Connecticut, dissociate
A#
Maybe I should buy a house in a town upstate

Gm               C               F    C/E    Dm
If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody
  C        A#
that I'm proud of

Chorus:
F                             Dm
I'm getting undressed for my lover
                       A#
And praying she don't hate all my skin like I do
F                              Dm
I'm reading books and drinking coffee
               A#
Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom
                    F
The water goes downhill, and still
   Dm                               A#
I swim against the current with two arms
that cannot fly
                   F   Dm
And I don't feel alive
                   A#
No, I don't feel alive

Telehealth, TV episodes
Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow
Validate, what I know
What I believe in and everywhere I wanna go

If I could, I'd wake myself up when
I am somebody that I'm proud of

Chorus:
I’m paying three different psychologists
Trying to remember who I told what story to
I’m writing feelings in a journal
Cuz' that’s what people who have their shit
together seem to do
The water goes downhill, and still
I swim against the current with two arms that
cannot fly
And I don't feel alive, no, I don't feel alive

F             Dm             A#
I keep coming up for air and ending up
with water in my
F             Dm             A#
I keep coming up for air and ending up
with water in my lungs

Chorus:
I’m learning how to set my boundaries
How to have compassion for myself and for my mind
I’m turning off my fucking cell phone
And trying to have honest conversations in real
life
The water goes downhill, and still
I swim against the current with two arms that
cannot fly
And I don't feel alive, no, I don't feel alive

I keep coming up for air and ending up
 with water in my
I keep coming up for air and ending up
with water in my
I keep coming up for air and ending up
with water in my
I keep coming up for air and ending up
with water in my lungs