BoyWithUke - Understand: chords

Chorus:
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Girl, I hope you understand
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I wanted to hold your hand
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But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
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And you knew I fell for you but you
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Just broke my heart in two
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I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed
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Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

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I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
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When I was met with a prescription of
a bullet made of lead
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And when I woke up in an hour in a pool
of my own sweat
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I said, "I swear to God I'll never even
try to sleep again"

So instead, I took my pen and started
writing evidence
And when I started making sense,
 I found that I had reached the end
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends,
you wanna bet, you're just pretend?
You're just a pet confined within
the lines of writing, you're not shit

I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways,
I swear I did
I said I'd talk to people
'bout the problematic life I lived

They were my neighbors; razor blades
And different flavored pills I hit
Therefore, I'm at, surely, my last straw
I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

Chorus:
Girl, I hope you understand,
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And so far I never held you with my arms
So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
Instead filled with anxiety,
always was a part of me
Guess I'm not cut out to be

Somebody 'cause it's not me,
I'm not used to all the talking
Was an introvert that had converted
feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems using
notes and lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days whenever
nights would have me crying

I'm not lying when I say that I would
rather die than go back
To the times I would try and be the
guy the people know
As always fighting with the demons
hiding far behind my eyelids
On an island full of violence,
in my head I had two pilots

Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn grey
I feel it coursing through my veins
I've said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway

You know I tried, you turned away
You straight-up lied right to my face
You fucked my life, ruined my day
But you don't know, so I'll say

Nothing can fill this silence,
no one can love like I did
(You don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair,
you still deny it
(So I'll say)
Nothing can fill this silence,
no one can love like I did
(You don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair,
you still deny it
(So I'll say)

Chorus:
Girl, I hope you understand,
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And too bad I know
I can't wake up because I lost my way
And you don't give a fuck about me,
this could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see,
so please, oh

Girl, I hope you understand,
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And you had known and played along
You were my home, I wrote you songs
Now you're dead to me, effectively
Removed yourself outside my dreams